Oldies but still gets hurting!

akhirnya, gue sedih lagi. fall into the deeper broken. sometimes i don't learn from my mistakes. so, here i am, stand by the most broken heart.

it seems like when i feel into somebody but they don't. ini biasa disebut sebagai bertepuk sebelash tangan dimana tangan yang satu tidak menyambut buat nepok. simple outside but complicated inside. tapi ini juga belum dibisa disebut seperti itu, cause i haven't did it! gue belum melakukanya! jadi kenapa gue belum sama sekali melakukanya? karena satu,hal. yaitu, TAKUT. yap, gue sadar gue selama ini takut, gue takut jatuh cinta, gue takut dikhianati, gue takut untuk disakiti, gue takut untuk ditinggal pada akhirnya. gue takut, kalau ternyata gue bukan the only one. gue takut sama KENYATAAAN. gue takuttttt-_- cemen yah.
tapi memang ini kenyataanya buat gue. jadi,gue hars membuktikanya kalau gue ngga takut,tapi gimana caranya? jujur, gue pintar dalam hal akademis *matematika dikecualikan* tapi soal hati,cinta,perasaan dan sebagainya, guek bodoh pollll!sangat bodoh. dan dari situ gue percaya bahwa Tuhan adil dan kadang bisa kurang adil ke gue -....- 


i always want it!wanna be yours if God decides, forever. i wanna be the reason that you smile. i wanna be the one who can make you happy. simple as that!

i do love you and i want you.

i didn't promise much to anyone.
actually, i got some hope that was fake.
i got trauma. i hope, it wouldn't be happening with you to me.

now, i found you. still found you.

"Life is about do and do not. That's why there were I DO LOVE YOU and I DON'T LOVE YOU."