WHAT'S HAPPENING ?

Alhamdulilah akhirnya ada kesempatan juga buat nulis. Start gue nulis ini pukul 01:07 tanggal 1 oktober 2012.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....

Pada kesempatan kali ini gua bakal kasih tau kalian semua atas apa yang belakangan ini gua hadapin dan gua rasain. Gue harap sih ini bukan cinta atau semacamnya. Tapi kalo emang ini bener cinta, kok miris banget ya buat gue L.

1.       Miss him but still not sure.

Ceritanya kangen mantan pacar padahal ngga sama sekali. Gue Cuma ingin dia ninta maaf sama gue atas kesalahan doi in the past. He doesnt know, tapi gue tau.liat aja nanti, neraka coy siap menanti elu! *seremmm amat- -“

2.       Found someone,someone and the other one-_-“

Bulan september itu bener bener bulan yuang sangat spekta.. banyak unpredictable things come to my life. Dimulai dari ada good will buat ikut kegiatan tambahan bela diri khas betawi. Dan alhamdulilah 1 bulan ini gue udah hampir nguasain 3 formasi. My idol juga nambah satu lagi. Doi samasama orang sunda, yah tapi kalah karena kalah bersaing dengan penggemar lainya, akhirnya gue hanya jadi ‘random fans’ buat bang apip. Then, it left one person that has been came for along time in my life. No doubt for him L

3.       Additional friends

Bulan ini gue juga lumayan nambah banyak teman dalam kehidupan sekolah gue. Gue yang terkenal males temenan, mau ga mau harus temenan sama manusia2 yang ada disekolah gue yang belum semuanya gue kenal. Dimulai dari anak kelas sebelah yang dipanggil ‘ Kak Candy ‘ temen2  pelawak yang nambah.

Intinya, setiap kehidupan yang berjalan setiap harinya punya hal-hal spesial yang ga bisa kita prediksi. Ada yang menguntungkan buat kita dan ada yang tidak nguntungin kita sama sekali. Well, asal kita bisa lihat dan ambil manfaat dari segi POSITIFNY, life goes on completely with unpredictable things.

Live now like you will gone. Love now like you haven’t for a while. Life as simple as that.

Love Is...

• When your heart starts beating harder with someone who special in your heart

   

   

  Love is more than a hope in your life.

  Love is a voice in the cave

  Love is a light who guides you in the dark

  It makes hard breathing for a while when it starts hurting!

James Morrison - Broken Strings ft. Nelly Furtado

 


Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before


Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

The Script-the man who can't be moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I’m not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don’t understand,
I’m not…broke I’m just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I’m still in love with you…

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you’ll come back here to the place that we’d meet,
And you’d see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I’m not moving…
I’m not moving

Policeman says son you can’t stay here,
I said there’s someone I’m waiting for if it’s a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you’ll come back here to the place that we’d meet,
And you’d see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

So I’m not moving…
I’m not moving

I’m not moving…
I’m not moving

People talk about the guy
Who’s waiting on a girl…
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world…
Hmmmm

and maybe I’ll get famous as man who can’t be moved,
And maybe you won’t mean to but you’ll see me on the news,
And you’ll come running to the corner…
Cos you’ll know it’s just for you

I’m the man who can’t be moved
I’m the man who can’t be moved…

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you’re missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you’ll come back here to the place that we’d meet,
And you’d see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
[Repeat in background]

So I’m not moving…
I’m not moving

I’m not moving…
I’m not moving

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I’m not gonna move

P.S. : stay or moving on ?choose better!even the both are hard to do!!

Thirty Seconds To Mars - This Is War

LYRIC : " THIS IS WAR" 

A warning to the peopleThe good and the evil

This is warTo the soldier, the civillianThe martyr, the victimThis is war
It's the moment of truth and the moment to lieThe moment to live and the moment to dieThe moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight
To the right, to the leftWe will fight to the deathTo the Edge of the EarthIt's a brave new world from the last to the first
To the right, to the leftWe will fight to the deathTo the Edge of the EarthIt's a brave new world, It's a brave new world
A warning to the prophetTo the liar, to the honestThis is warTo the leader, the pariah, the victim, the MessiahThis Is War
It's the moment of truth and the moment to lieThe moment to live and the moment to dieThe moment to fight, the moment to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight
To the right, to the leftWe will fight to the deathTo the Edge of the EarthIt's a brave new world from the last to the first
To the right, to the leftWe will fight to the deathTo the Edge of the EarthIt's a brave new world, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world
I do believe in the lightRaise your hands into the skyThe fight is doneThe war is wonLift your hands toward the sunToward the sun, toward the sun, toward the sunThe war is won
To the right, to the leftWe will fight to the deathTo the Edge of the EarthIt's a brave new world from the last to the first
To the right, to the leftWe will fight to the deathTo the Edge of the EarthIt's a brave new world, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world
A brave new world, the war is won, the war is won, a brave new world
I believe in nothing not the end and not the startI believe in nothing not the earth and not the starsI believe in nothing not the day or not the darkI believe in nothing not but the beating of our heartsI believe in nothing not 100 suns until we partI believe in nothing not not in sin and not in GodI believe in nothing not not in peace and not in warI believe in nothing not but the truth in who we are

Gravity History

15 tahun yang lalu lahirlah seorang anak perempuan. kita tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi padanya di hidupnya. anak perempuan itu di kumandangkan adzan sebagai pertanda, bel kehidupan telah dibunyikan. nafas hidup telah diberikan tidak percuma oleh Sang Pencipta. dia hidup dia tumbuhb di lingkunagn keluarganya. eeknya yang tangguh da kakeknya yang hebat merawatnya sejak di membuka mata di dunia ini. pada usia 5 tahun dia sudah mengerti apa itu dunia. hanya itu. pada tahun tahun berikutnya dia baru tahu KENAPA dia ada di dunia? untuk apa dia ada di dunia? sesungguhnya Tuhan lah yang merencanakan semuanya. Yang terjadi dalam hidupnya. peristiwa suka duka. Tema, cinta, keluarga, sekolah. Namun dia tidak tahu apa yang sudah tuhan simpan untuk dia kelak. di usia yang masih muda dia mengetahui suatu rahasia kelam dalam keluarganya. terlalu dini bagi seorang anak kecil untuk mengetahui RAHASIA KELAM ttg hidupya. pada awalya dia merasa biasa-biasa saja. namun lambat laun luka rahasia kelam itu mulai mengumbar sakitnya. sakit hati tak terbalaskan jawaban yang selama ini di tunggunya. dia lelah namun dia tidak mencoba untuk menunjukanya pada dunia. dia mencoba terus memesang seyum termahal dalam hidupnya demi sebuah jawaban yang mustahil dia dapatkan kelak. 

PERPISAHAN
perpisahan tanpa sebab. perpisahan yang selalu merugika, mengisi hari hari kecilnya. namun unt8gnya anak perempuan itu tetap bersyukur atas keadanya. mengeluh hanya di saat lelah. namun pada daasarnya anak perempuam itu tidak pernah beristirahat dalam hidupnya. beristirahat dlm artian,mencoba melepas semua curiga,tanda tanya, perasan gamang dalam hidupnya. 15 tahun. lebih dari 360 hari. dia masih bertahan. tuhan tentu saja tidak tinggal diam dalam meracang segala kejadian hidup yang terjadi satu kal;i.

WISEDOM
susah mecera arti dari kata diatas, anak kecil tersebut selalu mencoba. namu tetap tidakbisa. mencoba menjadi bijaksana dalam mengarungi lautan jawaban, mencari jawaban yg tepat,tanpa anak tsbt ketahui dalam pikiranya saja, belum ada satu pun terbesit satu pertanyaaan,dikarenakan banyak pertanya yang berebut naik keotak untuk ditanyakan.

PADA AKHIRNYA,APA YANG TERJADI DALAM HIDUP ANAK TERSEBUT TAK BERHENTI SAMPAI DISNI. WAKTU TERUS BERJALAN.


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